Dear Future Husband,
I was thinking about you, yesterday morning while getting ready. I paused for a moment realizing that everything spiritually in my life this year has shifted. God is bringing me to a new level of intimacy, and I thought maybe it’s because you’ve been praying for me….
The thought of that made me want to hug you…. RIGHT THEN AND THERE.
I pray for you constantly. That God would bring you to new levels of intimacy that you would spend more time in His presence than anywhere else. I pray He would bring you into your destiny and draw you closer and closer to His heart.
The kids are excited to meet you. They ask about you all the time and their eyes get wide when they talk about you. “I can’t wait to have a step daddy! When is he coming? I can’t wait to see how he will make you smile, mommy. Then you will have a grown up to cuddle with you.” It’s cute how they know me so well.
One day they will know you too. They will know what make yours eyes light up but even more so what makes your heart light up too. They are in constant mode of love and grace and I promise you will learn more about God’s heart for you through them than you ever thoughts possible. They will teach you so much about God’s grace. They will show you when you mess up, when you heart is heavy, or when you are in tears and ask them for forgiveness, they will restore you to the place of honor in their lives so quickly. Just as they have for me so many times. They will hold your face close to theirs and bless you with words from heaven, right from His heart. They will hold your heart and one day you will think “How did I ever live with out them?”
They are gifts, and I am so thankful that you get to have the deluxe God gift package deal with us three… Three for one- Instafam.
I am excited for you to tell me all about the conversations you’ve had with God about me. I imagine I will sit in anticipation as you tell me how you asked the God of the universe to date His daughter. WOW. I know you will be a mighty man of valor because my goodness, what a question!
One thing you will learn very quickly is that since I am His princess, I have naturally found myself among Kings, Queens and Princes of this world. I know you know that these powerful people will act as gate keepers and guardians… I have been taught by the best of the best how to be honored, loved, respected, guarded, cherished, adored, empowered and to expect to be treated with nothing less than honor and respect. You will find me perfectly conditioned to expect all of the incredible grooming you’ve had by the Leaders, the Kings and Princes in your life. All of this time, in all of your relationships with your sisters, friends, brothers, and mothers … all of that training has lead you to this… God’s been equipping you to date the His daughter for the rest of your life.
You’ll find that the leaders in my life are also very equip to… well… guard me… and that means, you’ll have to get to know them…
Sometimes in a dark room, with a lamp over head. Some of them are big and have guns…. and some of them have killed men with their bare hands… Some of them are Ninjas that you will never actually see, but there will be moments when you will know.. THEY ARE WATCHING YOU. Ok, so maybe not but, when you meet them, you’ll feel that way. 😉
I know you will be thankful for them, because these are the people who have lived life with me in the raw, real and gritty. These are the people who have wiped my tears, held me when I needed it and made me laugh with pure and utter joy. They are the people who have been tirelessly praying for you.. long before they knew your name. These are the people who have kept the frogs out of my life while I’ve been waiting for you.
You’ll find that I too, have may gates, invisible ones that protect my heart and guard my vulnerability, my sweetness and my softness. I have placed those gates there to honor the Lord, so when you come, when you honor each little part of myself I share with you, you gain access to another gate. With each little area you honor that piece you will have access to another and get one step closer to my heart. You will know by this process I have protected my heart for you because I know how valuable it is. And one day you will have it in full beauty and sweetness.
There are so may stories to share with you and SO many hopes and dreams that often time have felt lost, and yet God, who is so gracious, has restored more parts of me then I can even explain. He has shown me new desires for honor, for respect, not only for you but for me as well. He has given me such anticipation of you, such joy for your arrival, and yet with each passing day, I have grown more and more in Love with who He is.
There have been a lot of broken roads that have lead here, but you will know by my heart and my life, by the joy of my smile., God is faithful when He says He IS A God of restoration. You, my love,are a big part of that restoration for me. I often wondered if you would want someone who has had less battle wounds, but He told me then I would have less victories. I wondered if you would want someone who would experience having kids or other things with you for the first time, but He says He makes all things new. I wondered if you would come into my life and see bitterness of what you are not getting instead of the beauty of what you are….
God walked with me one day in our garden and I realized you are entering a life with incredible fruit, and harvest from that past season. You, my love, are entering the life of a woman who has walked through the storms and learned to put my hope and trust in God and not in man. You will walk into a life with tons of fruit and inheritance that you have not have to work for at all. Isn’t that just like Him? To give you all of the sweetness of a garden you have not had to work for….And you will be able to enjoy this harvest for the rest of your life… It’s that just like Him? He’s been tending this garden for you 😀
More than any hopes or dreams I could describe to you, I am most exciting about furthering the gospel with you. About holding hands walking into a room knowing we are a force of Love for this world to be reckon with. Our stories of restoration will shake the nation because we are the little pens in the Hand of a Mighty God.
Together…. We will lead nations to Him. <3
All my love,
Remember the cherish the now moments… “Today is today. Tomorrow is tomorrow”- leilie