She ran into the house and threw herself on the bed in true Disney princess fashion. In matter of 30 seconds, she assumed the worst- there were going to be no Christmas gifts for her. NONE.
She saw the stack of neatly rapped presents, looked through them for ten seconds in search of her name and then proceeded to “melt-down” mode.
By the time I walked upstairs to ask what was going on, the tear level was at stage ten: head-pillowed-burried.
“NONE of the pink paper rapped gifts are for me. They are ALL for Bravery. There are going to be no gifts are for me.”
In one moment, she had negated our entire history together. Every Christmas, since she was born, she has gotten a gift. She had no context for her assumption other than what she could see in that moment. She looked at the circumstances of the situation and because she couldn’t see what was planned for her, she assumed no plans had been made, regardless of our history together.
I felt that.
I saw me in her and the moments I have done this with God. I’ve looked at what He is doing in other peoples lives or what He is NOT doing in mine and I throw myself on my bed upset at the gifts I haven’t seen Him give me yet. I sit in a huff annoyed and frustrated telling Him everything opposite of our history together, while lies try and convince me He is different than how I have always known Him to be. I see His plans like a little child who can’t see the gifts yet, so they must not be coming.
“I know the plans I have for you…”says the Lord
I have a choice. I can choose to believe His character or the circumstances surrounding my frustrations. I can choose to believe even though I can’t see the pathway that does not mean He has not prepared one for me.
There are times when it feels like all we have is our History with Him. Like love letters stuffed in the draws of our hearts, there are words He has written to us beckoning us to remember the kind of Lover that He is. We are on a journey that leads us back to His heart and yet somehow in the panic of fear, we forget, He has plans for us we can’t see yet. He has something in store for us far beyond what we can ask or think.
Our history with Him is so valuable. It’s unique to us specifically. He subtly has given us an incredible relational tool that I long to see more valued in my own life…. the things He has done is a reflection of the things He is going to do. I can thank Him today for the break through I had two years ago and gain access to it in a new way today. I can praise Him for the moments that have yet to happened because I am confident in His character. Even if I can’t see the outcome specifically right now, if He’s done it before, He will do it again.
Psalms 77:11 says “Once again I’ll go over what God has done, lay out on the table the ancient wonders” (Message)
Psalms 78: 1-4
1-4 Listen, dear friends, to God’s truth, bend your ears to what I tell you.
I’m chewing on the morsel of a proverb;
I’ll let you in on the sweet old truths,
Stories we heard from our fathers,
counsel we learned at our mother’s knee.
We’re not keeping this to ourselves,
we’re passing it along to the next generation—
God’s fame and fortune,
the marvelous things he has done.(Message)
What God doing alive and active for me, but also for my children. How often has He kissed me with such a sweet blessing and then it’s forgotten by noon the next day! I long for a heart that is so enraptured by His voice, that each word He speaks I keep note of it like a Love story that will be carried on to my children. I want them to value history with Him like a love song that will be sung over us for the rest of our lives. The words He speaks over me they can have access to as well.
“I’ll make a list of God’s gracious dealings, all the things God has done that need praising,” Isaiah 63:7 (Message)
When it seems like He is not moving, when He is not speaking, when He is blessing people in your life with the gift you have been asking Him for…. praise Him. Praise Him because He is worthy, because what He did yesterday is as valuable as what He is going to do tomorrow.
He has already given us the tools to win every battle in our history with Him. He has prepare us for this day, this time, this season, this drought, this harvest in multiple moments that have lead us here. Open your eyes to see…
Write everyday down as an act of worship to the One who is worthy. Steward the things He has told you and is telling you. Keep track of it like your life depends on it. He is writing on your heart and is an active listener to your soul. He longs to lavish you with Hope and awaken dreams. Document words from heaven – what He is doing and what He has done. When there is a day where perpetual rain is hitting your heart, begin to releasing thanksgiving for the History you have with the Creator of the stars.
You are loved. Write your Love Story.
You might like this message by Jason Upton. It is one of my favorites. <3
PS She said it was the best Christmas ever…..
Image By Lecia McDermott.